Monday, May 23, 2011

30 Days To A Better Me

It’s time to buck up ladies. Not you. Me.

After reading all your positive and uplifting comments on Friday, I felt somewhat ashamed of myself.

Tsunamis, tornados, Bin Laden is dead and Michael Scott left The Office. Real stuff is going on in the world people. And I’m crying about a bum knee.

Shame on me.

Sadly, I am pretty sure I have said those words on the blog before. Shame on me.

Anyone who has read my blog for a while can tell you, I may have a tendency to be a little self-involved. Perhaps a tad dramatic.

There’s an increasingly good chance that I may be bi-polar. If someone studied me they might hit the jackpot of all psychotic patients – because I’m serious a *hot Southern mess* over here.

One minute all is well in the world. I’m eating my TCBY on a date night with hubby and feeling immensely blessed and grateful for my life. Two days later I’m sobbing on my couch during the season finale of Grey’s Anatomy telling my husband that Meredith Grey and I both need to get our $#%& together like whoa.

Seriously somebody call Bravo……

It hit me this weekend that it’s time for me to buck up. Yes, the past year has been difficult. No, The 5-Year Plan According to Amber isn’t exactly going according to schedule.

But oh freaking well.

So it’s time to gain control. Control of what, I’m not so sure. My eating habits? My workout schedule? My physical therapy? My disaster of a house? This list could get pretty long…..

I’m taking the challenge. The “30 Days To A Better Me” challenge. No this isn’t a book or some hot internet challenge. It’s just something I’ve come up with to give me a goal over the next 30 days. I’m too much of a control freak and OCD to believe I can just “think happy thoughts” and suddenly this negative cloud will pass me by.

I’ve identified four main areas that I want to work on over the next 30 days. It’s not rocket science….this is pretty basic. But I truly believe if I can spend time each day addressing these four main areas, I will gain some much needed balance and perspective during this next month.

I won’t bore you with the details of my plan – but if it works, I’ll be sure to share.

All I know, is I can’t keep making excuses for myself. I can’t keep waiting for something extravagant to happen that will change my outlook. The truth is, I’m incredibly blessed and far too spoiled and self-absorbed.

That trend has to end.

So begins Day 1 of 30 Days To A Better Me.

Oh and I’m not stupid. I don’t expect to be a completely changed woman at the end of this 30 days with everything I could ever want from life. I do however, believe if I can focus on four small areas and see true growth and development in those areas I will find the strength and discipline I need to make a positive change in my attitude towards all of the challenges I have faced over the past year.

PS. Sorry for the melodrama around these parts lately. I know this may not be the rainbows and butterflies so many of us are accustomed to from our favorite bloggers; however, I’ve got to be real with myself. I need a reality check and blogging all these issues so openly forces me to address these issues head on – and that’s exactly what I need.


Aly @ Analyze This said...

Here is to a better you {and me}! Cheers!

Christina said...

Good for you! And you know, sometimes it's nice to read a real post instead of rainbows and sunshine. One day, you'll be able to look back on all your posts and see how you made great changes for yourself :) Here's to the next 30 days! Yay!!!

Meg O. said...

Amber, I totally understand! Sometimes things will get out of control and when we feel we can't deal with it RIGHT THEN AND NOW, it frustrates us even more. "30 Days to a Better Me" sounds like a great solution to an OCD-driven gal :)

Megan said...

YAYYY for you turning the negative into a positive! So proud of you! I know you can do it girl! I went through a slump like a year ago, and one thing that helped me was making a playlist on my ipod of simply songs that made me smile and very happy. I listened to it every single day first thing in the morning. it totally motivated me and put me in a radiant mood.

gooood luck! <3

Neely said...

You have a great attitude girl! I think we all feel that way sometimes. Im glad you are honest and open with your readers. You have the best spirit!

Rissy said...

I think that sounds like a great plan!

If you can set aside time everyday to really address something you think needs work, I bet that in itself will completely improve any day.


Rebekah said...

Rainbows and butterflies aren't always real life, so no worries. :) Here's to the next 30 days! Hopefully this helps you!

Ashley said...

Good for you sweet girl! I know how frustrating it can be when your planning doesn't go the way you hoped.
You have such a great outlook and positive attitude -- not to mention an amazing support system =)

Amanda Leigh said...

I wish I could come up with some plan for myself too. Ive been dealing with some of the same kind of problems, and nobody can understand. Its just as though nothing is going as planned, and I dont see it changing anytime soon into the way I planned! its a serious quarter life crisis. I wake up every day thinking, Is this it? Is this my life?

Jessica @ Acting Adult said...

They say that it takes 30 days to form a new habit so I think you're on the right track. Start over and feel better about yourself and your life - it will work out for the best! You're taking great first steps in setting out on a plan.

Amanda Heady said...

Way to go! Change may not be easy but taking the steps in that direction is a great start! Good Luck

Tyly said...

I love and appreciate the honesty. Good for you in taking the steps towards your happiness!

Morgan said...

Good for you!!! I find I can accomplish things better with a great attitude. And it sounds like you have one :-) Good luck!

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ashley.warner said...

good for you! you go girl!
keep up the optimism and hard work!


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Ashley said...

Love that you are real, always be that way!

I hope your 30 day challenge is exactly what you need.


ty said...

Tell me more about this. I may very well do it with you. Lord knows I need to get my shit together.

Kelly Marie said...

Good for you girl! I totally understand the feeling & I hope everything works out according to your plan :)

Just Married Real Estate: The Blog said...

Sometimes putting yourself to the test is a good thing. You get the opportunity to take a deeper look inside yourself. I'm sure you'll like what you find.

The hubby & I are boxer owners too. That's how I know you're good people ;-)

Ms. Emily Ann said...

Good for you girl, and good luck! We all should focus on being better, the best us we can be, every day :) But we do deserve a little time to feel sorry for ourselves every now and then as well ;)

Tamara Nicole said...

It's ok to be drama! And I hope things are better, can't wait to hear how the 30 days goes!

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❤ Dani said...

It has NOT been 2 months since you last posted, has it really? I miss you! Come back!

Tamara Nicole said...

Miss you! Hope life is well my dear:-)

THE Stephanie said...

How are you girl? I hope everything is going well. :)

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