I have Baby Fever – like whoa! I think what’s most troubling about this sickness is that I have no idea where I caught it. None of my close girlfriends have babies or are pregnant. I do not see babies on a regular basis – as a matter of fact, it is possible that I could go all week without seeing a single baby (aside from in the grocery store or at a gas station.) It is not like I’m surrounded by beautiful, bouncing babies day-in and day-out – so why the sudden ache in my uterus? And more importantly – how long will this “illness” last? Is there some miracle drug I can take to make these aches and pains subside?
You see, I know hubby and I are not ready for children. Sure, if we were to accidentally become pregnant, we would step right up and be great parents. But if we try to responsibly plan for a family, this just certainly isn’t the time. I’m not sure it will be “right” for at least another year and half – possibly more. Yet even with the knowledge that we can’t afford another mouth to feed (okay fine – we could, but it would just require some sacrifices I’m not sure we’re ready to make), the fact that I still need to finish my MBA (actually – I need to begin my MBA) and that we’ve been married less than two years, I still want a baby so badly.
Maybe it’s all that we have been through over the past three months. We’ve had some rather large mountains to climb (actually we’re still climbing) and through it all, our marriage has only gotten stronger. Seeing how strong and committed Steven is makes me want a beautiful boy just like him. Knowing that we can survive what we have survived gives me a genuine peace that we can care for and nurture a child – heck maybe two or three!
I mean couldn’t you see us having one of the cutest babies? Blonde hair – blue eyed (according to genetics – we can only have blue eyed children). Everyone likes to think there kids will be cute, but I just know we’ll have some super cute babies – maybe looking something like this:
I love chubby babies!
So there you have it. I’ve confessed. I’m sick with baby fever – and I want to know who gave it to me. Maybe some of my favorite bloggers who have recently announced their own pregnancy? Maybe the SUPER adorable baby clothes I see at Target every time I’m in the store? Whoever or whatever it is that has given me this sudden craving…please oh please…tell me where to find the antidote. I don’t have very much will power and I’m afraid I might cave sometime soon!
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