I guess it's time to spill as to why I have been such a sketch ball these days. Please forgive me for my absence and mysterious explanations but you see, I received some rather shocking news on March 7th.
My boss called a meeting with our corporate staff. Long and short of the meeting, our company is experiencing downsizing and corporate restructuring as a result of economic performance. End result - my position was being eliminated effective April 8th.
Four days before my 26th birthday and one day before celebrating my 1 year anniversary with the company, I found out I was losing my job. Wonderful.
Surprisingly, I didn't cry and I didn't panic. I went home that evening, told the husband the bad news and promised him I wasn't going to lose my cool over this. Got in a bubble bath and called the BF. As I explained my situation to her, I began to feel the anxiety and panic sitting in. Thankfully, she talked me off my ledge and convinced me that everything would be okay.
And that was the height of my panic.
The past four weeks have been spent meeting with three different recruiters, interviewing with five different companies, working full time to finish my current position and going to grad school. Not to mention the countless hours of prayer I've spent asking the Lord to reveal Himself to me through this experience. So as you can see, I've been a little busy.
I remember saying to Steven on March 7th, "God already has this worked out. He already knows where I need to be. I just need to get of His way and let Him do His thing."
And those words couldn't have been more true.
I accepted a fabulous offer with a new company last Thursday. This new position will be a great step in my career. I will be working as a senior accountant for a publicly traded company that is headquartered in Charlotte. Such a blessing. Such an exciting opportunity. Such a God thing.
I had to cancel four interviews when I accepted this position and I turned down another offer. Looking back, it's just so apparent how the Lord was working on my behalf through this whole experience. How when I just truly trusted Him, he answered my prayers. He didn't just give me a job, He gave me a great job and is already opening doors to new opportunities for my family.
So that's the story. That's my panic. Like I said, looking in the rear view mirror, it truly wasn't all that bad. So amazing how the Lord has turned a bad situation into a huge blessing.
**And just so you know, this isn't my style. The "trust the Lord everything is going to be okay" has never been my strong suite. I'm an anxious, overbearing, worry freak. When things don't fit nicely into my little plan, I tend to go off the deep end. I'm not saying that I didn't worry at all during this period, but every time I felt myself begin to panic I just focused my thoughts on prayer and asked for strength and understanding. And BAM....less than four weeks later the Lord has this all worked out. I know this was a God thing and not an Amber thing - because, well I'm just not that calm cool and collected!
I'm finishing up my last week at my current job. It's definitely bittersweet. I have worked with some amazing people over the past year and I have found valuable mentors in this position.
But here's to new beginnings. Here's to what the Lord has in store for us this year.
Thanks to everyone for your support and encouragement. I really appreciate it! :)
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